It was one thing to tell herself everything was resolved, but quite another to thoroughly accept something she had always considered wrong.
She shoved the photo back into the envelope and closed the lip, willing herself not to think about the previous pregnancy and its tragic end.
Carmen assigned responsibility for that to herself because she didn't notice early enough that Destiny was sick.
Pulling the rail back up, she stood beside the tent, helplessly watching Destiny cry until she coughed herself into another retching fit.
She met his gaze, her stomach tense as she steeled herself against the response to her next probing question.
Deciding to use the sun to orient herself, she detoured around several dense patches of blackberry bushes.
She gingerly untangled herself from some thorny vines and tried to stand.
The night air was chilly on her bare arms and she shivered involuntarily, annoyed at herself because it looked like an obvious ploy.
With that dark thought, she excused herself and went to her room.
His body was the nearest available leaning post, so she helped herself, burying her face in his chest.
Hadn't she resigned herself to being the ugly duckling years ago?
Something... she shook herself mentally.
All her plans were about to blow up – all this because she had allowed herself to be drawn into a relationship.
In the last few weeks she had allowed herself to be distracted.
Why did she need to prove to anyone, least of all herself, that she was right in breaking off the relationship?
A woman has a right to protect herself – any way she can.
She finished her oatmeal and pored herself a cup of coffee.
She pored herself a cup and started breakfast, wondering where Bordeaux was.
She lifted her canteen and allowed herself a swallow of the tepid water.
She plodded on, willing herself to take each step, not thinking of the miles to go, but merely getting through one more painful step.
No matter how often she asked herself the question, the answer remained elusive.
She turned away from the beauty of the ranch, reminding herself that she had made the decision to leave.
Locked herself in her room for days working on layette sets for the grand children Russie would never provide.
Flinging herself on the bed, she sobbed out the anger and hurt.
In her confused state of mind, she had convinced herself that he loved her.
"No they won't," said the voice of the kitten, and Eureka herself crawled over the edge of the platform and sat down quietly upon the floor.
She nestled herself comfortably in Dorothy's lap until the kitten gave a snarl of jealous anger and leaped up with a sharp claw fiercely bared to strike Billina a blow.
There was more applause at this, and then Ozma had the jewelled saddle replaced upon the Sawhorse and herself rode the victor back to the city at the head of the grand procession.
I say I see the criminal, in my mind's eye, creeping stealthily into the room of our Ozma and secreting herself, when no one was looking, until the Princess had gone away and the door was closed.
Eureka was much surprised to find herself in disgrace; but she was, in spite of the fact that she had not eaten the piglet.
This lovely, sweet-natured lady offered to teach me herself, and we began the twenty-sixth of March, 1890.
The only time she had to prepare herself for the work with her pupil was from August, 1886, when Captain Keller wrote, to February, 1887.
Failing to make herself understood, she would become violent.
She has always seemed to prefer stories which exercise the imagination, and catches and retains the poetic spirit in all such literature; but not until this winter have I been conscious that her memory absorbed the exact language to such an extent that she is herself unable to trace the source.
In view of these facts I cannot but think that Helen, while writing "The Frost King," was entirely unconscious of ever having had the story of "Frost Fairies" read to her, and that her memory has been accompanied by such a loss of associations that she herself honestly believed her composition to be original.
Not my or thy great-grandfather's, but our great-grandmother Nature's universal, vegetable, botanic medicines, by which she has kept herself young always, outlived so many old Parrs in her day, and fed her health with their decaying fatness.
"The soul not being mistress of herself," says Thseng-tseu, "one looks, and one does not see; one listens, and one does not hear; one eats, and one does not know the savor of food."
One old frequenter of these woods remembers, that as he passed her house one noon he heard her muttering to herself over her gurgling pot--"Ye are all bones, bones!"
The phÅ“be had already come once more and looked in at my door and window, to see if my house was cavern-like enough for her, sustaining herself on humming wings with clinched talons, as if she held by the air, while she surveyed the premises.
Truth is always in harmony with herself, and is not concerned chiefly to reveal the justice that may consist with wrong-doing.
The little princess went round the table with quick, short, swaying steps, her workbag on her arm, and gaily spreading out her dress sat down on a sofa near the silver samovar, as if all she was doing was a pleasure to herself and to all around her.
There was a general movement as the princess, smiling and talking merrily to everyone at once, sat down and gaily arranged herself in her seat.
It is only necessary for one powerful nation like Russia--barbaric as she is said to be--to place herself disinterestedly at the head of an alliance having for its object the maintenance of the balance of power of Europe, and it would save the world!
She blushed, pressed her clasped hands on her knees, and then controlling herself with an evident effort lifted her head and began to speak rapidly.
Sometimes it seemed to her that this difference arose from the difference in their ages, but she felt herself to blame toward him and promised in her heart to do better and to accomplish the impossible--in this life to love her husband, her children, little Nicholas, and all her neighbors, as Christ loved mankind.